keyboard

i'm learning how to play a keyboard by using recorder's note.

hahhaa,,

why??

coz i dunno how to run it,,,

besides,i dont hve keyboard's note,,,

its all about music,,

i love it but it just my hobby to learn something new,,

i'm not going to be serious in this kind of field,,

but i hope that i can get a job by this,,heheh

actress? singer? model muslimah? song writer? 

like,,,like,,like,,

=))

p/s : membina masa depan bersama. :DD

DEMAM,,

my diary,,,

i'm not well,,,,,,,,,

headache,,

sore throat,,

flu,,,

mental pun not so well,,

bakal sakit jiwa kot hari2 mcm nie,,

someone plez take me away,,,

i hate this situations,,,,,,,

coz i know i'm not strong enough at this time,,

i'm not like the same nurul at the past,,

i've changed,,,

i just wanna runaway from this people,,,,

mak,abah,, nk kawin la,, boleh?

hak3,, sumpah buang tebiat,,

gile hape,,,

i want to go far away from here,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

someone plez take me,,,,

yes,,, u,, don't ever forget to bring me along,,,

 

menunggu.

hye my diary,

i was so happy lately actually,yet i don't know it will be continuously..
whatever it is,, i'm glad that u still keep in touch with me,,still wants to tell me your activities,,still wants to know whts going in my life,,still wants to take care of me,,but it also reminds me how hurt it was,,the pain that i've gone through,,i hve to bear n be strong enough when u decided to end it juz 4days before my final exam..i'm just happy to see you doing well for your study,,i hope you will fight to the end as it's made you to sacrifice a lot.make it worth okay,,also i hope,,really hope that i can further my stdy for degree in psychology at UKM,bangi...ameen.

to mimie,,credit to you,,because you gave me such advice that made me to think bout it rationally,,also thanked to you for "act like a lady think like a men" by steve,,u're right..sometimes we have to make a distance,,then when he realizes,,he..by himself..will come to me,,its enough for me to chase him,,no need anymore,,if he really needs me,,he suppose to find me,,i'll be there for him as a good friend,,sister,,and,,for the fact that i'm still waiting for him..always,,,also thanx for being by my side during my hardest time,,

to har,,you helped me to get the answer that i'm waiting all this time,,thnx a lot,,if you not going to ask him on that time,,i'll be suffer soon or later,,i got the answer,it's hard but i accepted.sorry for not telling u the truth earlier..its juz me,,i'm not strong enough to tell u that it was over at that time,,my tears cant stop,,no voice would came out from my throat,,hu3,,thats why i sent the msg,,


to bella,,thnx for your care,,,if you were not there,,i dunno whts going to happen to me,also thnx for the strength that u gave me,,the support also,,thnx for lend me ur ear to hear me,,

to my dearest nik noorsyafiqah nik noorazi,,i miss n love u,,i knew u getting busy as u're going to end ur 2nd sem soon,,all the best!! only focus on ur main goal okay,,ur parents really wannna see ur successfull..so do i,,

thnx to all r2706 <3for the support,,ice-cream,,


i'm not writing this to look back at those time,,its just to learn and taking lesson from wht had happened..after i came back from pangkor,,i came with new strengh,,new spirit,,yet,it doesn't mean that my feeling changed,,it juz under control,,i learn how to control it,,i knew i made a mistake by letting all those sadness controlling me during that time,,i'm sorry,,now,we're besfrend like sister and brother,,i remembered he said to me,,breakup for temporary,,so this story will be continue after he finish his study,,it will be continue if there's jodoh between us,,now officially i announce that i'm single,,but not available,,because? i'm still cant let those memory go..this will be the last i write something bout him,,after this,,he will be just like my brother,,to u,i take ur family like my family too,, :)


currently i'm doing nothing as i finished my science foundation,,whts next??work??hope so,,money,,money,,money,,hehe,,,its the time for me to chill,,, XD


p/s : trying to be happy again =))

getting better

not so much to say at this 1:13am...

juz telling u my diary,,i'm getting better,,

when i read a book title "act like a lady,think like a man" by steve,, i learned,.

juz following the flow,,

i'm going to achieve wht i hve to,,

my dreams are not like others usually dreamed.

juz want u to know,, really hope n i pray that u'll success in ur field,,so do i.

i faced a lot of prblem,,hardness,,

and thats made me to be who i am,,

~take me for who i am~

p/s : i can bear it.

the end of foundation science's student

18mac2011.

5.45pm : tamat paper terakhir ku sbg student asasi sains.

6.30pm : done copy n paste segale movie.

7.30pm : lepak2 jap then siap2 solat maghrib sbb nk ready pegi icity,shah alam.

9.00pm : tunggu family har dtg sbb nk amek brg2,,then solat isya' dulu.

9.30pm : bertolak menaiki kereta ke destinasi pertama kami iaitu jusco bukit raja,klang.(5 dawn + manager)

             : tempah tiket wayang tgk citer merong mahawangsa...best,,best,,embok!!ahah ;p

             : sementara nk tunggu wayang start kol 12.30am,,,kami pun pusing2 satu mall tu and then lparrrr..

             : kdai mkn byk nk tutup so ktorg kuar blk g shah alam mkn kat molek  kelantaniscious.

             

              yana - nasi goreng ayam + teh ais limau

              har - nasi goreng tomyan + horlick ais

              mimie - nasi goreng kampung + (lupe la air ape,,sorry,,hehe)

              farah - roti prata chesse with kuah dhal + milo ais kot,,xbpe ingat jugak,sorry,,hehe

              aku - nasi goreng daging + teh ais limau

              dhiya - roti prata chesse with kuah dhal + horlick ais

19mac2011.

12.10am : bertolak ke jusco bukit raja nk tgk wayang.heheee..

12.25am : arrived. bergambar jap kt depan pintu masuk.. hak3 ;p

12.30am : movie start.

2.00am : movie tamat.alang2 xde tmpt nk tdo,kitorh teruskan la berjalan2 di pagi bute.haha

2.30am : tiba di icity,shah alam...wowww,,,colourful..tercapai gak hajat aku nk g icity. :D

             : pusing2 n jalan2 smpai penat

             : brgelak ketawa and bergambar di pagi2 bute.hahaha

3.45am : bertolak ke mcd puncak alam for our breakfast. ( gilerrr awal sarapan.hahahahhah )

4.05am : tiba di mcd puncak alam.lepak2,,,gambar2...online...makan.

6.15am : bertolak ke bandar puncak alam fasa 2 untuk memulangkan kembali kreta y disewa.

6.30am : tiba di kampus ku syg blik..sblm berpisah,,kami bergmbr cket.kenangan~

6.50am : smpi je bilik terus mngemas skit then solat subuh.

            : lpas solat sambung mngemas lagi,sbb mak nk dtg kol 11,,urghhh,,kelam kabot,,ngn beg xde lg,,

            : penat + lenguh kaki berjalan xilang lagi,,terus gak mngemas bilik,,,,,waaaaaaaa

8.30am : sbb hampir 24jam xtdo kot, (mlm sblmnye busy stdy math repeat lg.pening).. so ak tdo jap.

9.30am : tersedar dr tdo sbb bisinggg,,,rupe2 nye sume org ngah kelam kabot nk g exam munsyi USM.

             : n ak baru trime msg mngatakan slip exam ak xdpt print, ak da la xmndi lagi..xgosok bju agy,, =.=

             : kelam kabut ak online tp line busy gile,xdpt online nk tlh har.naseb ak da save awal2 ak nyer..

             : mslh utama lak,,mcmne nk print.kdai mne bukak ari sabtu.sruh wan si kwn bella tlg print.

             : ak rush ahh g mandi gosok bju n kemas bnda2 nl bwk g hall exam.

10.05am  : berlari ke hall exam walopun aku xtaw aku exam kat hall mne..suke ati jelah ak berlari

               : jumpe sam pinjm hp die sbb ak xbawak due-due hp ak rush nyer pasal,, :(

               : lpas jmpe bela,,ak berjaya jmpe kema sbb ak nk slip exam ak,

               : u know wht,,slip ak xde!!waaaa,, k nges je rase..kelam kabur lari ke ofis asasi mntak ofis printkan

               : thank god. got the slip but then tersalah masuk hall exam ngan yana n har.hahahahaha..malu beb!!

               : at last,berjaya gak jmpe hall kami.kelam kabut jwb 310soalan in 1hour.huuuu

12 noon : my family arrived to take all my stuff back. smpai je bilik ak lupe kunci ak ilangg..n kema xblk lg

             : dgn penuh kesabaran n masa terluang ak cter la psl tmpt nxt place y ak n g nie,, (perak)

             : kema balik.and kemasssssss bilik..hohohohoo...giler pnat.xsmpat rest lngsung.

1.45pm : settle semue barang n ak kemas barang2 nk g perak plak.hehee..mak ak balik saujana dah.bye3

2.30pm ; bertolak ke teluk intan,perak bersama keluarga mimie n har.

             : jauh perjalanan.pening lagi. singgah di sungai besar makan jap.

             : thnx to mak mimie blnjer mkn.hehehe

              

                 mak mimie : lontong ayam + ( xingt air ape.sorry )

                 aku : mee udang + air horlick

                 har : soto + air horlick

                 mimie : mee goreng + abc

6.30pm : xingt mase sgt tp btol kot,, sampai sblm maghrb.

            : rehat2,,solat,,bace novel,,

8.00pm : siap2 kami bertiga kuar g pasar malam...yeay!!! then tgk menara condong. :) mimie drive..

             : survey harga arang utk bbq kami,

11.00mlm : selamat pulang ke umah mimie. sambung bace novel,,then tdo..

20mac2011.

9.15am : baru bgn tdo. xsedar ape,,lena gile,, ;p

             : siap2 mandi,,makan..sambung bace novel ad+iz

12 noon : bertolak g amek yana kat terminal bas teluk intan.

             : g menara chondong lagi sbb yana xtgk agy menara uh,

             : g pasar besar utk beli ikan n udang for our bbq,,nyummm..nyum..nyum..

             : g TF shopping..beli set bbq,,crab ball..sosej...lidi...maggie..mcm2 la

1.30pm : blik umh mimie,,siap2 solat n kemas barang n susun brg2 y baru beli tadi.lunch,,

             : mimie siang ikan.

2.15pm : bertolak ke lumut :)  thnx to ayah mimie tlg anta kan,,

4.00pm : tiba di lumut.beli tiket n gooooo pangkor!!

            : best naik feri,,,yuhuuuuuu~

5.00pm : tiba di pangkor menaiki van PINK!!hahaha,, 

             : check-in pangkor inn chalet.

6.00pm : pusing2 tgk pantai.malang nye air laut tgh pasang n bergelora la gak.

 7.00pm : hujannn lebat,, so we decided to do bbq infront of our room's door only.

             : payah nye nk wat bara... =,=

             : sodap nye ikan bakar,,udang,,sosej,,,crab ball,,,heheh...tetibe,elektrik mati plakk dah.

10.00pm : siap kemas2 sume n elektrik dh ade,, kitorg lepak2 je atas katil dlm bilik layan citer MERLIN :)

12.00pm : sambil bace novel,,tdo.....

21mac2011.

9.45am : bgn tdo..siap2,,,bawak bubur g breakfast kat tepi pantai...makan sambil melihat pemansangan laut.

10.15am : g bergambar sat kat batu2 besar,, kaki lebak sbb langgar batu..sakit wooo,,lebam serta merta.

10.30am : gerak ke pulau giam kot,,,, g snorkeling..

              : sakit kaki ak pijak karang,,balanus,,amende tah agy ak pijak..luka,,darah,,

              : mmie,har n yana paksa tarik ak g tgh2,,kat ikan byk,,takotttt...ak peluk mimie kuat2,hahaha

              : kebetulan sungguh jumpe dak2 palam gak tgh snorkeling..

              : duduk2 tgk pemandangan laut smbil makan bisku tedde bear ;p

1.00pm : gerak menaiki bot ke pangkor,,xlarat nk berjemur da,panassss

            : sewa basikal..cycling sejauh 6km.turun naik bukit y mnjunam..gilerr ahh,, hahah

            : lunch kat jeti pangkor..then shopping byk gile..then xlarat nk blk ngn beskal,,sewa laa van,hak3 ;p

4.15pm : slamat tibe di chalet..smbung main air kolam plak,,kolam kanak2,,haha,,then baru g bersihkan diri.

             : solat,,,sembang2,,lepak atas katil,,then tdo tunggang langgang lagi. ^_^

7.00pm : bangunn tdo..siap2 solat sume yhen kuar g dinner,,,bawak maggie makan kt meja tepi jalan.

             : xbrani mnghadap laut sbb air tgh pasang n kuat,,gelap plak uh,,

             : lpas makan,,kami jalan2,,,

             : g beli ikan bakar. baru taw ade ikan name ikan kambing,.hahahahahha ;p

10.30pm : balik chalet,,xleyh lepak lama2 kt luar mlm2,,,bahaye!!

               : mngemas bilik n barang2,,esok pg awal2 nk balik dah,,then lepak2 tgk tv,,bce nvel,,cite2,,tdo..

22mac2011.

7.15am : bgn tdo,,mndi,,siap2,,bertolak ke jeti pangkor.hujannnnnnnn~

             : tak ingt timing ahh..ni main agak je,,haha,,  

 9.45am : slamat tiba di jeti lumut. g beli tket bas ke kl..then mimie blnjer mkn kfc..lapaaarrr,,

11.00am : bas bertolak.  xtaw plak bas ni melencong ke ipoh.ngok ngekk tol ahh,,

              : stuck kat ipoh,,tukar bas,,

2.30pm : .berolak menaiki bas dari ipoh

7.15pm : stop kat bukit jalil,,sian mak ak kat tnggu kat jln duta. =,=  yana mnruskan prjlnn ke kuantan

            : mak ak trus balik tnggu kt ktm sg.buloh.ak menaiki start ke stesen bndar tasik selatan.

            : dari situ ak menaiki ktm ke sg.buloh manakala har ke seremban.berpisah la kami,,huhuhu

10.00pm : ak da slamat tibe,,,singgah makan jap,,dah lame xmakan nasik,, :( lapaaarrr..

10.30pm : slamat tibe di umah.hurrrmmm

this is the end of my story as an asasian's student.

p/s : gambar2 lain akan diupload kemudian,xsempat nk transfer agy,,huhuhuu

impossible~~

 

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did-------

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know--------

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know--------

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

lagu ni byk mnggambarkan apa y saya rasa sekarang

 

.................................

dear diary,,,

:'(

finally,,,

i'm break up,,

lagi 4 hari nak final,,

waaaaaaaaaaaa,,,

          for the sake of our future,,

    for you and for me.

gonna miss u a lot,,

you're the 1st one in my life,

as u said

kalau ada jodoh ada lah,,
:((

frust!!

frust nyer,,,,

ni bukan 'pisang berbuah 2 kali',,,

dah byk kali dah kot,,

haissshh =,=

xlarat nk nanges dah,,

xlarat dah nk rase mcm nk guling2 tangga batu caves tu,,,

x larat dah nk bg muke ni berkedut seribu,,,

trying to smile,,

pasti ada hikmah disebalik semua ini,,

ya Allah,,kuatkan hatiku,,

semoga yg terbaik utkku,,

kurniakanlah petunjukmu,,

kuatlah hamba mu yg lemah ini,,

i'm not going to give up. insyaAllah,,

juz need some advice n strenght from my frenz,,

yeah,,

rakan dikala ssh dan senang,,

that's all that i needed.

p/s : kuat,,,kuat,,kuat,,kuat,,