give me some advice plez =)

agak sedih sbb aku rase mcm xlayak je nk masuk USM tuh,, ye la.. aku bukan nye genius,,blaja pun main2,,usaha mcm mne pun still takat tu walaupun ade la improvement sket,,tp xpelah,,aku terime sbg takdir,mungkin takde rezeki nk sambung USM.lgpun byk kos y aku nak xde kt USM,,,, mungkin rezki aku ade kt tempat lain,,kalau pun aku dapat sambung degree kat puncak alam smule,,aku syukur jelah,,janji dapat sambung degree,,aku x larat nk repeat nk patah balik amek diploma,,walaupun aku wish aku dapat unvrcty lain sbb puncak alam tu blakang umah aku je,,asasi pon kat situ dah,.tp kalo takdir membawa aku kembali ke puncak alam,,aku redha jelah,,Allah lebih mngetahui,.,.mungkin kalau aku jauh dari umah nnt aku homesick xleyh fokus stdy ke hape ke kan,,kan,,ok,,think positive =)

ok,,now let's move on with this  matter,, how'd u guys trying to forget something that u love in the past in order to start a new life,, i worked hard for this, but when i do or see something that will remind  me bout it,,i'll feel hurt and dying inside,any advice that would u like to suggest..?? ermm,,i'm ok,,just to forget everything that had happened,it will be tough i thought. maybe i'm still stuck with the memory,,the memory that we shared together,,huhu,,i'm sure that i'm not going to forget it unless i get amnesia.HAHA,,actually i'm not going to forget it lah,,bcoz we will learn from the past rite? so why should i forget it haa?! i juz need to recover from the pain,,together with the time,,people needs some time for their own kan,,MASA AKAN MENENTUKAN SEGALA NYA =)

whatever it is,, i want to achieve my main goal first. if u're seriously to look my journey moving on smoothly,,,,help me then okay,,yeahh,,i'm wake up!! chaiyok2!! lepas ni aku start keje,, so aku akan membusykan diriku dengan keje,, my bff said that aku ade ciri2 WORKHOLIC,,hahaa,,i will be like that in order to get busy,,then aku takkan sempat nk emo2 nih,.,mcm tu gak stdy,,kalo dapat sambung blaja pasnih,,aku nk jd STUDYHOLIC lah,,hehehe,,ade gak benefit,,aku nk aktif mcm kat zaman skolah dulu,,,dan seiring dengan itu peningkatan usia aku tak nafikan,, and plez tak payah susah2 tanye aku soklan 'cepumas',,haha,,walopun aku tak SEKERAS zaman skolah,,sikap KERAAS tu tetap ade ea,, nk makan penampar aku boleh lah carik pasal,tp tu sume kisah zaman silam,,aku xkeras mcm tu dah,,juz keras dari segi sikap aku y minat bnde2 lasak,,suka sukan,,not like a lady yg ayu n lemah lembut feminin,,i'm still learning,,dan aku sudah berjaye mnjadi calon gadis melayu trakhir kot,,HAHAHA,,juz joking ok,,aku xlayak pon,,,,sekadar belajar suke pakai baju kurung,,,blaja masak,,pakai heels tinggi sampai sakit kaki,,pakai selendang,,pakai dress,,but i'm still  me so take me for who i am tau kawan2,,kalau hangout tu aku still suke jeans,,shirts and shoes,,,tak makeup pun,,but now i learn to touch up sikit la stakat foundation,,compact powder,,lip balm,,eyeliner,,eyeshadow,,simple :D

[ malu laa plak..hihi.. *blushing* ]